Hey there…
Thank you for stopping by and for taking the time to read about me and the type of work I offer
I was born and raised in Milan. I moved to London in 1998. I was 22
I was always an active kid and teenager until I fell into the depth of anorexia and bulimia at the age of 14(ish). I had severely disordered patterns and behaviours with food and exercise throughout my teens and twenties. I gradually spiralled into depressive behaviours, anxiety and for a long time I felt like I was frozen and stuck in a body I didn’t want. It was only in my early thirties that things shifted a little; however, I was far from being able to nourish myself, neither I wanted to because the shame, the guilt and the fear of losing control with food and a very distorted idea of body image were too powerful
I still considered food as my worst enemy and skinny-body compulsive obsessions were still dominating features of my thinking and behaving
And I thought I would never, ever, live completely free from this exhausting and gripping relationship
When I was 32 my dad passed unexpectedly. It was a deeply traumatic experience and knowing no other way to cope with pain, the unknown, grief and sadness - other than numbing them with controlling food, I refused to eat again. I was hospitalised in a mental institution where doctors tried to fix my compulsive behaviours and obsessive thinking
It didn’t really work and I left the hospital feeling misunderstood, broken and like there was something really wrong with me because everyone else seemed to respond to the treatments so well
It was then, in 2008, that a friend of mine at work suggested I attended a yoga class she was attending. It was then that things really began to shift…although for me it was just about the fact I could flex and bend like rubber, but you know, we all need to start somewhere…
Fast forward to today - and many classes, self practices, trainings, books, podcasts, courses, discoveries and insights, mentoring programmes, nutrition and body coaching and many, many teachers - and the relationship with food, the body I live in has changed and that has had a ripple profound effect in how live, accepting who I am with kindness and compassion and embracing the narrative of me
A narrative at the heart of which there is a desire to come home to myself. A narrative of I how I am healing
I believe that the most valuable gift of inner work and self-inquiry is the art of knowing oneself in the most profound, nourishing and accepting ways, knowing what it means to self care, to be fit and healthy, to decide what works and what doesn’t, because there are many ways to look at the same question and there isn’t only one answer. This way, I believe, helps freeing the individual from rigid ideals of how one should be eating, moving, thinking, working and so on
I think that life feels rich when navigated with a curious, exploratory, flexible approach and attitude and this gives permission to experience the multi-dimensional quality of being human